You can’t experience being awake , you can only experience “calibration” to a designated “awake state”.  And then once you recognise the calibration criteria you can match the “awake state”.

But don’t expect  Fanfares and Angels and “goody gumdr0ps from heaven” … all calibration is mechanical and all experience is caused.   And all goals once reached become “mere details” of your personal past history.

Being awake .. ultimately means being awake to the “veneer” of achievements.

That is why all of the “enlightened” recede in some way from the world that the majority live in, it’s not worth the effort to “convince” yourself that achievement “means” something as arbitrary and as valid as failure.

(gee I wish I could edit these after I post them … but such is life)

If this leaves you confused  ,  imagine if it didn’t.